I step on the scale every day. It's my addiction.
I know that many people don't. They like to be surprised, but I have massive amounts of data that tracks my ups, downs, and how my body responds to morning vs night, home cooked vs fast food, too much water vs too little water, etc. I know that my method doesn't work for everyone, but that's what I do.
As I stepped on the scale last night, I saw a 0 at the end, which, put me solidly into a new decade this morning. It wasn't a cheat of the scale. It was a real day with real tracking and I had a success. And I realized... It's addicting to see that scale move.
Reflecting back onto last week's topic at the Weight Watchers meeting, I realize that that scale can be so bad. People get wrapped up in that number and aren't able to count the victories that aren't attached to a number, and I admit my guilt here too. Still, to see that sale constantly moving down, down, down.... That's powerful.
I used to joke that Weight Watchers was AA for foodaholics. And, I realize, it kind of is. So many times in my meetings have I seen women (and sometimes men!) crying and talking about how they know better than to binge eat. They substitute food for those feelings that are hard to deal with. They eat to rejoice in a celebration or they eat to comfort in tragedy. GUILTY AS CHARGED. But those eating those feelings to give you that "high" is the same as stepping on the scale. You step up, you see that number going down and you feel that "high." It's exciting. It's exhilarating. It's progress, and it's addicting.
So, addiction is probably a bad thing, but at the same time, it's a substitute that I can deal with right now. I'd rather be addicted to numbers going down than food.
And so, I leave you with this:
I see a decline
In the numbers on the scale:
Healthy addiction?
